Tuesday, December 23, 2008

For Change Will Do You Good? ..

'The Change We Need' kata campaign Mr. Barrack Obama. Just now while I lay down and breastfeed Rayyan, something came across my mind. Change... again kata campaign Mr.Obama 'Change Can Happen'. Teringat blog nih... sgt simple, sangat tak de ape2 lah pendekata nyer. But I love my blog dearly, for me that's the utmost important thing (sape tak sayang blog wehh...). I created the blog at first solely as I need a place to pour thought, to put in 'canvas' what I have in mind. There's time when I just sat and look blankly at my blog layout. The thought of changing the layout does come and go, sesekali mcm angin menderu gitu. But then I think, hmmm....like my brother motto 'Let It Be'.. So terbatal la niat nk wat layout lawa2.. Nak tukar gambar Dina and Azalea kat atas tu pon mcm terbantut.

Atau, adakah I'm the type of person who has a very hard time to change? setia? tak pasti. But then when I did blog hopping.. terlintas juga perkara yang sama. Tukar layout? Its like 'To Be or Not to Be' matters. Its like you have a house, and was thinking. Mau cat baru ke tak mau.. Not that I am that lazy to do it. Tapi hati terasa sangat berat. And I was thinking, if I change the layout..because I wanted to change them or because I wanted to let the other blogger 'cuci mata' with the whole new layout? Then, terus lagi rasa tak nak tukar layout, sebab dulu mula2 buat blog untuk diri sendiri. Tak bagitahu org pon ada blog..hehe.. Even papa pun tak tahu, then only find out coz I leave the browser idle.

Actually there's a lot of things in life that I found hard for me to change. My habit for example, suka tangguh kerja. So jadi delayed... pastu kalau org paksa2. Lagi rasa malas nk buat, the more people push me..the more delayed the task. Everything will be 'in progress'. Tapi kalau org x push, pandai lak siap..huhuu...
And I'm married to the same type of person, so memang tunggang-langgang hidup kami. But guess what, I love my life. Even my dear friend Ezni tanyer, 'Tak mo fly ke? belajar oversea pulak?', jawapan no 1 : mmg tak layak rasanyer. Jawapan no 2 : rasa sayang dengan kehidupan sekarang. And if possible, I wanted to stay like this. Tapi mana mungkin kan?

Teringat my very bestfriend Ijah, back then in high school, (kat Malaysia its secondary school laa...pandai jek taruk high school ;p). Masa tu gaduh2 dengan sorg schoolmate nih, she accused me of something. Ijah menjadi peneman setia, we went to meet her. And I explained to her my arguement when then she suddenly said 'kau dah banyak berubah'... And out of blue, I said 'we have to change to face life'. Habis jek sesi buli org tu...oppsss sessi 'slowtalk' tuh. Ijah ckp ' Ja, aku suka la..betullah "we have to change to face life" kan?'..

Err...I think I have to postponed this entry.... haha

Sunday, December 21, 2008

For I Always Have Reason

Last friday, like the usual...my workplace sunyi. But I guess, my heart has never been. Even on the day like that (usually Friday) on the way to work I already know, not many collegues will be around... There nothing makes me feel lonely. Maybe bcos I'm sooo used to the fact that most will take day off on Friday. My office is 'cowboy town' on Friday.Memang begini sejak kami pindah dr Shah Alam ke sini..
*depa nih sungguh banyak cuti utk dihabiskan

I signed in my Skype, also to find fews only available. And upon my availability, Dora skype me, and we chat for awhile, and we end up exchange our blog address. *we have exchange before tapi then I lost hers and she lost mine... But what make me write this entry is Dora's entry here. The fact that both of us use english in our blog. Dora fully used english as medium in her blog, while I did use some english but ku rojakkan dgn bahasa melayu.But almost 75% entry in my blog is english.

Why I prefer english... Actually its not my preference, but...its due to the fact that I need to teach sciences in english. And the fact that english was supposed to be the medium in writing, speaking and everything here. I love bahasa melayu. senang kan, bahasa ibunda. But then I need to improve my english. Some people said 'ok la...i do think your english is good'.. Uhhh?? I always think my english is not so good. I have grammatical error here and there. I even usually started my class with english and end up speaking n lecturing in malay. Apa nak jadi?

So i need to improve myself kan? see how i mixed every sentences with malay words/sentences...??

That's the main reason I used english here, use english when talking to Dora n Meg,use english in meeting, even meeting tuh conduct in Malay. I really need to improve my english...harus..harus...huhuuuu

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

For I've Been Tagged

I’ve been tagged! by eversweet Ira atau Cloud9 ;)


1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog

Starting time : 3.50 am (baru terjaga dr tido..tgh demam nih..uhukss)
Name : @ home - Aja, @ office - Naza (BEST)
Sisters : adik ku,Eitah yang jiwalara cam kakak dia.. (tp jiwa lara dia lg teruks dr aku)
Brothers : 3 big bro, 2 bro, 1 in memory (died on motor accident, and he is always in our heart..al-Fatihah)
Shoe size : 6,7 kalau preggy up to 8..pastu turn balik 6..kuang3x
Height : 158cm (sometimes I do feel I'm taller..ngeh..ngeh..ngeh)
Where do you live : PUNCAK ALAM, papa kata..papa kawen dgn org 'keramat' so mmg kena duduk kat puncak alam (sesuai dgn status sebagai org 'keramat'..ye lah tuuu)

Have you ever been on a plane : Yep, tp bukan gi obersea, gi sarawak jek..
Swam in the ocean : Really loved it! <--ni jwpn cloud tp sebab sama..biarkan ya?
Fallen asleep at school : I slept during class in secondary school, gua budak Asrama, mmg kuat tido kot, and always fallen asleep during degree year. Pastu sekarang lecture kat IPT, takkan aku nk marah student tido..hmmpphhhh
Broken someone’s heart : Yep.. selagi belom kawin, ada jek ati terluka. Bukan comel sgt pon gua nih, tp papa kata mmg sebelum mengandung shomel la..tp dh tuu...huwaaaaa..x sanggup ckp ooo

Fell off your chair : Mcm x penah jek, tp ada dua tiga kali tgh2 jalan tergelincir, clumsy? kalau iyer..patut la Dina tuh clumsy...

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : I have a husband who has becomes my ex-boyfren (ye lah dh jd hubby, so x-boyfren la kan) and since I know him, he hates calling or talk over phone. So YES, most of the time I sat by phone all nite n waiting for his call, atau letak h/p sebelah bantal, kejap2 check..painful nyer masa tu.Yang bengang 'tahap 3' tuh, dia yang nak sgt kat gua, pastu dh dpt malas2 call lak. Tp bukan malas call aku jek, parents dia pon dia malas call..huhuu

Saved e-mails : Yep.. I’m so consistent! and usually its hard for me to delete emails.

What is your room like : Bedroom - ok la..so so jek, kalau dtg umah aku, simple je x de brg2 pon, cam umah sewa, Office - Messy!...definitely. Then every end of semester baru kemas. Kalau tidak, nk carik paper jek sepah balik. Huhuuu

What’s right beside you: 2 handphones, mine n papa's

What is the last thing you ate : Tgh demam tp order kat papa, satay 15 cucuks..pastu papa belikan Char Kuew Tiow lak..selera lak tuh (papa kata. biar betul mama demam???!!)

Ever had…
Chicken pox : Yep.. long time ago..
Sore throat : Yes...rite now, and because of the sore throat..tu yg demam tuu
Stitches :I dont have any...yet
Broken nose : Nop!
Do you Believe in love at first sight : yup...I believe in anything regarding love..
Like picnics : Nope...memenatkan, dan mengusutkan rambut..(walau ku bertudung ya..)

Who was/were…
The last person you danced with : My hubby and with the 3 of our kids, memula kami berdua, then Rayyan mintak dukung, pastu Dina n Azalea gelak2 sambil menyelit celah kaki..
You last yelled at : dont remember, rasa cam lama x jerit kat org..

Today did you...
Talk to someone you like : yup
Kissed anyone : papa kissed me and said, cepat sihat ya
Talk to an ex : NEVER!
Miss someone : Arwah adik, and most of the people that crossed my life path

Who do you really hate: ada...back-stabber..

Do you like your hand-writing : yup..

Are your toe nails painted : NEVER!

Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : not sure
What color shirt are you wearing now : Cream + black + brown stripes
Are you a friendly person : hehe...yes I guess, tp ramai kata garangs
Do you have any pets : not for the time being, masa kecik dulu suka kucing
Do you sleep with the TV on : Yes.. sometimes
What are you doing right now : checking emails n my stores..
Can you handle the truth : well it depends, coz truth is painful, sometimes

Are you closer to your mother or father : Both of them

Do you eat healthy : huhuhu.. not all the time..

Do you still have pictures of you & your ex : ada...mana ntah, tapi sebab been with papa since 8 years before getting married so x de sgt la gambo2 tuh

If you’re having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to : Papa

Are you loud or quiet most of the time : Loud most of the time..
Are you confident : Not really but I do get helps to build them

5 things I was doing 10 years ago
1) I was studying in UKM
2) actively participate in kamsis event
3) In love with papa
4) I sometimes travel home to Keramat kalau bosan kat kampus
5) I was active and vibrant back then

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
1) settle my debts
2) perform hajj/umrah
3) buy a beautiful house for my parents
4) buy the ever great Medela Freestyle Breastpump for every breastfeedingmoms
5) build a charity school with conducive facilities <--me tooo cloud..

5 of my bad habits
1) suka bercakap tp bgtahu subjek last sekali (mangsa: papa n ezan..hahah)
2) shoppings for unnecessary
3) take time to perform solat
4) malas masak, tp suka kemas ---but sejak sakit, umah cam tongkang pechah
5) pending my office tasks ---me tooo cloud, argghhhh..

5 places I lived before
1) Keramat, KL
2) UKM, Bangi
3) Dengkil (Jenderam Hilir)
4) Subang Permai
5) Puncak Alam

5 people I tag

Huwaaa... tatau nk tag sape laa...nanti pk dulu